so..........got an sms from Alim saying that WE ARE IN THE FINALS OF NYP BANDZOUT 2007!!!!!!!
the finals will be held 2 weeks from now at NYP Auditorium. we are just 1 of the 6 bands who managed to get through to the final. just wondering now how can I get supporters into the auditorium for the final date itself.
I'm not afraid of: - Playing in front of a 1000 plus crowd
I'm afraid of: - Going too fast, going too slow - Not being a lively player - TRIPPING OVER CABLES
so SUPPORT US. we will be playing TWO songs at the finals. and we promise it'll be an electrifying two songs!
I really hope we'll be playing I Was Made For Lovin' You.
can somebody please lend me a Les Paul??? PLEASE!!!!
You could have a change of heart If you would only change your mind Instead of slamming down the phone girl For the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall But I ain't gonna make that call When divided we stand baby United we fall
Got the time got a chance gonna make it Got my hands on your heart gonna take it All I know, I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart If you would only change your mind Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby Time after time
Without you One night alone Is like a year without you baby Do you have a heart of stone Without you Can't stop the hurt inside When love and hate collide
I don't wanna fight no more I don't know what we're fighting for When we treat each other babe Like an act of war
I could tell a million lies And it would come as no surprise When the truth is like a stranger Hits you right between the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason And I know I got a love to believe in All I know got to win this time
Without you One night alone Is like a year without you baby Do you have a heart of stone Without you Can't stop the hurt inside When love and hate collide
You could have a change of heart If you would only change your mind Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby Crazy - Crazy
Without you One night alone Is like a year without you baby Do you have a heart of stone
Without you One night alone Is like a year without you baby If you have a heart at all
Without you Can't stop the hurt inside When love and hate collide
if you wish to be a kind soul and help me round off the sum to $50, you can email me for my bank account number. thanks a lot. you're very kind. =)
here are some screencaps of the Winning Eleven match I was playing earlier with my bro. we both used our favourite teams - Milan for me and Inter for him. we also used our own self-created players for the match.
AND I SCORED THE WINNING GOLDEN GOAL.
i know this really doesn't look like me, except maybe for the hair and eyebrows (and the cool goatee) but i'm continuing to experiment with the Edit Player feature.
here are screencaps of the winning shot, and a YouTube video of it...
Pirlo passed the ball to Ronaldo, who made a smart turn and passed it to me, and i rammed it past the keeper from just outside the box.
alright. it's two hours into the first day of school for primary, secondary and JC students.
it's June 25th, and i haven't seen her since June 9th. that's a freaking long time. 16 days!!! looking forward to Thursday so that i can see her again. sigh.
better start saving money for you know what.
at least i'm sitting here chatting with my best friend, while waiting for all 12 or so parts of the 1985 animated Transformers movie to load on YouTube.
I saw my idiot brother post up a 'Friends Test' thing on his Friendster. so I thought I'd make one too JUST FOR FUN. and since I like to make things difficult for no reason I selected the '20 questions' options.
Bear in mind I might not even know the answers to anything I asked.
earlier this evening, somebody posed a question to me on MSN..
'do you really want to be a police officer?'
that question seriously had me thinking, even though the person who asked it wasn't from NPCC nor SPF.
The Do Is... do i really want to become a public servant? do i really want to sit in the FRC and drive rounds around the same neighbourhood over and over again every few days a year? do i really want to put on that same uniform for the rest of my life?
The Am Is... am i prepared to screw up my sleeping hours working under the shitty shift work plan? am i prepared to pass IPPT and shooting every year? am i prepared to be stuck in an NPC for years? what if i have to man the counter instead of going out on patrol? am i able to serve the citizens, protect my loved ones and make sure that Singapore sleeps peacefully every night?
The Can Is... can i pass out from POBC and NPCO course? can i even pass the 1st and 2nd interview, and medical checkup or not? can i siam from SAF to achieve my childhood dream?
all these questions just come into my mind...but still the answer is
fuk I have SANA course later at 0800. supposed to be at BTSS at 0745 but I'm still awake at 0403!!!
oh yea, i feel much better now. about yesterday at ATF.. i really felt like shit the whole morning. felt like shit till i experienced things i never experienced before, like:
1) seasickness 2) carsickness
one of the cadets even told me that i forgot to lock the carabiner properly!! i guess i was really affected by what i thought was so, until somebody told me it wasn't the case. felt so much better in the afternoon that i could joke around with shahrul and jaha.
listening to with or without you for the like, 10th time today.
damn this has become my favourite song to jam recently. we're playing this song later at 1730 at Fourtones for the NYP Bandzout competition.
Italicised lines are those that I might add back up vocals to. we'll be playing the 'Shine Like Stars' version of the song so it's gonna be cool.
See the stone set in your eyes See the thorn twist in your side. I wait for you. Sleight of hand and twist of fate On a bed of nails she makes me wait And I wait without you
With or without you With or without you.
Through the storm, we reach the shore You gave it all but I want more And I'm waiting for you
With or without you With or without you. I can't live with or without you.
And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give, and you give And you give yourself away.
My hands are tied, my body bruised She´s got me with nothing to win And nothing left to lose.
And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give, and you give And you give yourself away.
With or without you With or without you I can't live With or without you.
With or without you With or without you I can't live With or without you With or without you.
(Yeah, we'll shine like stars in the summer night We'll shine like stars in the winter night One heart, one hope, one love With or without you ...)
i'm in a poor state of mind currently. i don't know what to think, i don't know what to do. i've never felt like this for several years.
i might laugh, crack jokes, and stuff like per normal. sure i might be going about in my life as if i'm okay but the truth is i'm not.
i have atf tomorrow yet i don't feel like going. i don't wanna place people's children's lives at stake, but i already told warden and christina that i'm going. maybe i'll just go and do something mild. maybe handle bouldering or something.
how the HELL do you write a song which is so addictive????????!!!!!!!!!!!! i just can't stop playing this song over and over again, and the video is GOLD. it's from the movie Music and Lyrics starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. i haven't the movie yet but it's now No.1 on my want-to-buy list.
“Pop! Goes My Heart” Written by A. Blakemore and Alanna Vicente
I never thought that I could be so satisfied Every time that I look in your angel eyes A shock inside me that words just can't describe And there's no explaining Something in the way you move I can't deny Every word from your lips is a lullaby A twist of fate makes life worthwhile You are gold and silver.
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head But then PoP! goes my heart I wasn't gonna fall in love again But then PoP! Goes my heart And I just can't let you go I can't lose this feeling
These precious moments, we have so few, Let's go far away where there's nothing to do but play You’ve shown to me that my destiny’s with you, And there's no explaining Let's fly so high- will you come with me tonight? In your dress, I confess you’re the source of light. The way you shine under starry skies You are gold and silver.
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head But then PoP! goes my heart. I wasn't gonna fall in love again But then PoP! Goes my heart. And I just can't let you go, I can't lose this feeling.
A twist of fate makes life worthwhile You are gold and silver.
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head But then PoP! goes my heart. I wasn't gonna fall in love again But then PoP! Goes my heart.
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head But then PoP! goes my heart. I wasn't gonna fall in love again But then PoP! Goes my heart. And I just can't let you go.
'sometimes i wonder' is a song i'm writing right now. inspiration comes from a short period of wondering how come..
i'm the senior but it seems like i'm throwing about 500% more effort than the junior. it's like i'm here doing all his work while he's away holiday-ing. talk about passion & dedication.
i'm ashamed to be wearing the same rank as somebody who doesn't deserve it at all.
usually when you go for HQ courses you see CIs from the newer batches all popping up to help, which really made me feel a little left out there. where the hell was he when he was supposed to help out at PK? - packing his bags for his little vacation and attempting to organise a movie outing that same day
damn it, if you're purposely trying to piss me off you're doing a very good job at it. five gold stars for you. seriously just FUCK off, if you think you can throw aside your duties and responsibilities and do shit things behind my back.
there' s another reason why i'm so pissed off. it's related to the movie thing but i won't be saying it here. you can ask me about it on MSN or personally if you want to.
when i observe and experience his 'warped views of CI standards', i really feel like throwing up.
i am almost certain we received the same, if not his should be better, training. the mistakes made by the instructors for my batch would have been rectified by the time his batch came around. all i can remember is, i sure wasn't trained that way.
so does he go through the 18 days of course just so he can play around, sit on top of the cadets with rank & status, and take pictures to put on msn and friendster just so that girls will think 'oh man in uniform handsome!', or is he here to help with the unit?
if he's here for the latter case he isn't really doing much at all. in fact he's doing a very lousy job at it. and pissing me off in the process.
i stayed up to plan something for her.. and woot! i don't regret staying up at all because i just finished my plan, looked through YouTube and found...
just when i hailed ART OF LIFE as a near complete epic, here comes along something to seal its place in my heart as THE song.
Art of life An Eternal Bleeding heart You never wanna breathe your last Wanna live Can't let my heart kill myself Still I'm feeling for A Rose is breathing love in my life
here's another excellent piano piece from Yoshiki, Unfinished. before i heard this version i never really thought much of the album version of this song. this piano version is just so..beautiful
Oh! I'm looking at you can't control myself nothing, but pain for me
* wipe your tears from your eyes just leave and forget me no need to be hurt anymore
# go away from me now I don't know what is love? no need to be hurt anymore
been a lot of posts about what my heart and conscious mind thinks, but what my mouth can't say out... i really need to overcome this problem ASAP!
X JAPAN Ballads Collection this is one album that can make me emotional. cause of the intensity of Toshi's vocals and Yoshiki's piano playing.
01. forever love 02. longing~togireta melody 03. endless rain 04. crucify my love 05. alive 06. say anything 07. unfinished 08. tears 09. forever love (last mix) 10. the last song
forever love, forever dream afureru, omoi dake hageshiku setsunaku, jikan wo umetsukusu oh tell me why
sing without you, i'll sing without you can't you feel my heart, falling through the rain i'll sing without you, i'll sing without you can't you hold my tears, cause still i love you
endless rain, fall on my heart kokoro no kizu ni let me forget, all of the hate all of the sadness
crucify my love, if my love is blind crucify my love, if it sets me free never know, never trust, that love should see a colour crucify my love, if it should be that way
dead or alive, no place to run get it settled once and for all dead or alive, can't live in the past only one way to live
time might change my life but my heart remains the same to you time may change your heart my love for you never changes
you said, i miss you so much every night, think of you and facing loneliness, but when you feel sadness never can i stay with you
loneliness your silent whisper fills a river of tears through the night memory, you never let me cry and you, you never said goodbye
owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru kokoro wa mada nureta mama...
i went without dinner today. bad move. it's 5am and i'm still here hungry.
just sitting here procrastinating and listening to No Surrender by the Outfield, which is an absolutely addictive and relaxing song. it's been on repeat for the past 2-3 hours.
just downloaded a whole bunch of rare Outfield songs, and wondering how come such a fantastic sounding band weren't that famous. they are THAT underrated.
now on to my current thoughts and feelings....
just thinking just how is it possible for somebody to change so much within a year just how is it possible for somebody i've never really paid much attention to in the past to suddenly become somebody i'd shower all my affection on
i've seen several bulletins on Friendster about love and stuff, and this one really strikes me down the most: - EXPRESS how you feel about her. DONT keep it to heart cos she WANTS to know what you think about her.
which makes me wonder. should I do it? i've got lots of things to say to her, yet i can't find a proper way to let them out, despite having so many opportunities to do so. i really don't want to waste any more opportunities, yet i really don't wish to lose her friendship should things go wrong.
and.. I REALLY NEED TO SAY THIS OUT HERE before i actually say it to her when we meet again. otherwise I'm gonna feel very guilty.....very VERY guilty.
to old woman, if you do ever come across this post or somebody gave u the link... i'm really sorry for that lousy attitude and reply I gave you in the morning at the police academy. the rest have told me that they were shocked and you were quite pissed off with me that morning. i think that was really unnecessary from me even if i was angry at some things.
also, i didn't go home till 3.30am last night cause i wanted to be sure you were safe at home before i myself went back. i saw you girls going somewhere else but i decided not to follow, so i just walked around aimlessly until i knew you all were home.
i just want you to know that it's not about saving that damn $30!! it's all about you. maybe you all thought i went home but i just can't force myself to go home knowing for a fact that u were outside there, and anything could just happen to 3 teenage girls hanging around outside past midnight.
on my 2 hour walk i saw: 1) drunken old men singing and staggering on the streets 2) homeless people sleeping on benches 3) bright-colour haired teenagers smoking and gathering at parks & playgrounds 4) foreign workers from China, Vietnam and Bangladesh walking around in groups
and NOT a single police vehicle at all.
with shit like that happening out there, and all my dear SPF playing hide-and-seek, how could i not worry for your safety? whether you like it or not, the truth is, I DO CARE and i will continue to do so.
that's all i have to say to you for now...
Here's No Surrender. it's a perfect song with a perfect video. one day I would have to sit down and LEARN this song.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=EdS6G0Bt2sA
No surrender, even if it's over No surrender, stop pretending You never cared for me 'Cos I remember, words that we shared A promise to keep, if they meant nothing to you Well they still mean a whole lot to me
And if you tell me, to just walk away And forget you forever, then all I would say Is no surrender
Even if you leave me, no surrender Stop pretending, you never said those things 'Cos I remember, I remember One small mistake, turned into a crime Oh but if I take the blame You can go but I won't say goodbye
And if you tell me, to just walk away And forget you forever, then all I would say Is no surrender And if you tell me, to just walk away And forget you forever, then all I would say Is no surrender
My favourite track from my favourite classical album, which is ironically a vocal track. The best thing about this song is definitely the brilliant piano playing. Even without the vocals, the piano alone would make this a wonderful song.
Amethyst first appeared on Eternal Melody I (1992) as a violin instrumental track. It was used to introduce the X JAPAN members during the Dahlia tour, before it broke into the familiar keyboard intro sequence of Rusty Nail.
The vocal version appears as a secret track 22 on ETERNAL MELODY II ~ A classical album by YOSHIKI ~. I am not sure who is the lady who sings this song as she doesn't seem to be credited in the album sleeve.
You were only a whisper away But I can't touch your heart If the words aren't enough to bare your soul I would give you the more You were always shining sun or rain Like a violent storm Close my eyes but you'll never fade You never disappear I feel alone Can't you see me Standing on the verge of moon I'll be watching over stars till they are gone Should I know nothing could make me miss you less
Oh, I've been waiting for you To tell me what is love I don't know how to be loved How to be by your side Morning light shines in my room I'm holding dreams of you It may take no less than this pain But I can't stop loving you
Feel my heart You have never known That you have all of me Everytime I see you I'm falling in love I can live a lie again but without you...
Oh, I've been waiting for you To tell me what is love I don't know how to be loved How to be by your side Morning light shines in my rooms I'm holding dreams of you It may take the rest of my life But I can't stop loving you
Monday: shooting comp Tuesday: boring day at home Wednesday: went to suntec Thursday: cut hair Friday: MDIS roadshow Saturday: Police Carnival
got nothing much to blog about, there are some things i really shouldn't say out even though they make me happy ^^
to make this entry a little longer, here's a little x japan influenced piece of lyrics I came up with when I was in sec 4....during those unhappier times.. i added another two verses at the end
I'M A MUCH HAPPIER PERSON NOW
found it while searching through my old PC. got a lot of old lyrics of mine, dunno if I should just keep posting them up or what. I might want to use them for UV in the future.
it have NEVER sent this piece of lyrics to anybody.
wipe your tears filled with blood stab the rose, slice its petals lose yourself inside the walls of your heart drown your mind in sorrow live with all the madness now
oh bloodied rose, why do you let me go fuck all those painful memories let my heart bleed for all eternity what do you care?
break the glass, kill my tears stab the rose, slice its petals burn myself inside the walls of your heart drown myself in acid death is all that matters now
oh bloodied rose, tell me what you desire fuck all those lustful emotions let your heart bleed with all that desire what do i care?
"lose your voice, lose your head you try to scream but you hear nothing you reach out for somebody but nobody's there you lie there hopeless, hoping for a saviour you live for that long, but die in the end"
oh bloodied rose, insanity grips you fuck all that hopeless desires let your heart tear with all that stabbing let your blood flow away leaving no hope, no dreams, no desire what do i care?
this is my favourite ballad from my favourite all-time band X JAPAN.
"Tears" is a single released by X Japan on November 10, 1993. It was written and composed by Yoshiki Hayashi and would later appear on the band's last album, Dahlia'
the poem which is at the end of the song is absolutely beautiful.
Lyrics:
doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete ima wa sugisatta toki ni toikakete nagasugita yoru ni tabidachi wo yume mita ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoku wo dakishimeta nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite dry your tears with love dry your tears with love
loneliness, your silent whisper fills a river of tears through the night memory, you never let me cry and you, you never said goodbye
sometimes our tears blinded the love we lost our dreams along the way but i never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates never thought you'd leave me alone
time through the rain has set me free sands of time will keep your memory love everlasting fades away alive within your beatless heart dry your tears with love dry your tears with love
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai kanashimi wo aoi bara ni kaete dry your tears with love dry your tears with love
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata wo toiki wo kanjite dry your tears with love dry your tears with love dry your tears with love dry your tears with love
If you could have told me everything You would have found what love is If you could have told me what was on your mind I would have shown you the way Someday I'm gonna be older than you I've never thought beyond that time I've never imagined the pictures of that life For now I will try to live for you and for me I will try to live with love, with dreams, and forever with tears
here is the English translation
Where do we go after we're separated Now that hanging question has passed On an endless night, I dreamt of a journey I gazed at the foreign skies and embraced the loneliness Tears always flow with the winds of time It's not over, feel your sigh
Dry your tears with love
Loneliness, your silent whisper fills a river of tears through the night Memory, you never let me cry and you, you never said good-bye Sometimes our tears blinded the love We lost our dreams along the way But I never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates, never thought you'd leave me alone
Time through the rain has set me free Sands of time will keep your memory Love everlasting fades away Alive within your beatless heart
Dry your tears with love
Tears always flow with the winds of time It's not over, blue rose from sadness
Dry your tears with love
Tears always flow with the winds of time It's not over, feel your sigh
oh what the hell. today was a really bad day. which started with a really lousy dream the night before. won't say anymore about it. it's 4.18am now, and the best thing I probably said through the entire day was...
"Yesterday is today, tomorrow."
tA Movie Festival 2007 began today. You can check out the short article about the festival, and many more articles I wrote at tokuAsia.com.
Also decided to rewrite whatever I had of SPD... sooo Liwen, you're going to have to wait longer.. ^^
Listening to Luther Vandross' Never Too Much. It's a real funky one from the 80s. Sounds good though it's not really something that you'd catch me listening to often.
Probably gonna sleep after the song is done.
Oh yes. Blue or green? And why? Hahaha.
Never Too Much
I can't fool myself, I don't want nobody else to ever love me You are my shinin' star, my guiding light, my love fantasy There's not a minute, hour, day or night that I don't love you You're at the top of my list ‘cause I'm always thinkin' of you
I still remember in the days when I was scared to touch you How I spent my day dreamin' plannin' how to say I love you You must have known that I had feelings deep enough to swim in That's when you opened up your heart and you told me to come in
Oh, my love A thousand kisses from you is never too much I just don't wanna stop
Oh, my love A million days in your arms is never too much I just don't wanna stop
Too much, never too much, never too much, never too much
Woke up today, looked at your picture just to get me started I called you up, but you weren't there and I was broken hearted Hung up the phone, can't be too late, the boss is so demandin' Opened the door up and to my surprise there you were standin'
Who needs to go to work to hustle for another dollar I'd rather be with you ‘cause you make my heart scream and holler Love is a gamble and I'm so glad that I am winnin' We've come a long way and yet this is only the beginnin'
Oh, my love A thousand kisses from you is never too much (Never too much, never too much, never too much) I just don't wanna stop
Oh, my love A million days in your arms is never too much (Never too much, never too much, never too much) And I just don't wanna stop
Oh, my love A thousand kisses from you is never (Never too much, never too much, never too much) I just don't wanna stop
Oh, my love A million days in your arms is never too much
